New Years

Sobered -she called me-, pretty accurate. perhaps not for tonights account, but in general yes. sometimes i don't know how to put my finger on how im feeling or what it is about me that makes me motivated or the lack there of, until someone puts the word in my head. today is new years eve and im going to a party, which should be fun but last year i was the one throwing the party with my friend, which was a smashing sucess (yes i said smashing) so i don't know if anything could beat that. but who knows, sometimes things surprise you. in fact each year that passes i feel like things are never what i expect. which keeps things exciting i guess :D