sometimes when you look at things that don't seem beautiful at first, they start to transform before your eyes into something so strangely honest and revealing, you can't imagine that you almost walked by without stopping to look

O, Inverted WOrld!

O, Inverted WOrld!

Friday, November 6, 2009

having a thoughtful day


But aren't they all?
Walked into a psych test today thinking it was next week. 
.....its times like these when i feel like im not doing well for myself. 
right and wrong right and wrong. 
if it's wrong does that make it not right?
crossing that fine line_________
like when do you take the next step?>>>> and when is the next step too far out?
sometimes you don't know you've crossed a line until youre too far over to come back. 
what does that mean? ..but don't you know.....
*cant you handle it?*

awkward

smile laugh 
if its different the next time we see each other 
sex in the moonlight is the same as keeping it hidden in the dark
what is it about the night that makes things more comfortable 
its too real during the day 
you're too much of who you are 
or not enough of who you actually are. 
burnt toast crooked smile awkward pauses 
lost in translation 
lack of meaning 
tell me what you want 
life is easy when everything is surreal 
no one says it better than connor, 
the love i sell you in the evening by the morning won't exist
it was so easy in the evening now its so complicated. 

 

weird dream last night

climbing up a rollercoaster, stopped by a friendly carnival worker before falling to my death. I was very grateful. Followed two guys around, one of them a red head. saw lindsey and my aunt. and then there was a rush to leave the carnival, or to be quiet.